I realized I hadn't gotten my period today. I took a pregnancy test while I was at school and it messed up so I through it into my purse. Not too long after I reached in my purse to get my phone and glanced at the test and it said postive REALLY dark. I was in shock!! I didn't know what to say or do. I just cried. Mr. Sands let me call my mom and go home. I called Sarah, her and Pat didnt really sound like they cared. But he wouldnt anyways. Oh well. I'll go to the doctor and find out for sure.

I had my 2 week checkup at the OBGYN Thursday. He said everything looked good. He also said which came to my surprise that the baby has dropped. So it could be a matter of days or wks until he's here. I pray that Its soon, but safe. I want him to be 100% healthy before he decides to make his grand arrival! I'm so excited though. I have my hospital bag packed and I'm getting ready to wash absolutely everything of the baby's. I dont want any germs to be anywhere!!!

So, everything seems to be fitting into place as we get closer to the baby's arrival. I highly doubt I'll make it full term with him. I feel awesome, really, but with measuring 3 weeks ahead as it is, and then them saying he's gonna be a big baby, I think he'll be showing up when we least expect it! But we're ready. I'm gonna take pictures of the crib and everything we got, just because. Plus, my baby shower is coming up July 14th, so I'm excited and all. He kicks nonstop, I wake up at least 10 times a night, thats not including having to pee every 15 minutes. But Patrick is excited. He's gonna be a good dad. He's actually at an interview right now, with No Limit Audio. He went to school to be a certified car audio installer and has been waiting for months to get a job in his field and its finally paying off. I pray that his dreams will come true everyday because he has worked so hard to be better, and he really is doing it. His past isn't as good as people would expect, but he has worked hard to get where he is today, and I'm proud of him for every bit of it. I have faith in him. I know everything will eventually slow down and we'll be back on track. So I'm not worried. People have some good days and bad days. Just gotta take it as it comes.

I cant believe how long its been since I've posted. I'm on myspace more now. I guess that must be why. I was working a full time job so I never really had time to do much but eat, sleep and work. Now that I'm pregnant again I've been on leave since March 6th. But my last pregnancy didnt go as planned. I lost a baby girl at 5 months due to a weak cervix. But guess what!? I'm 20 weeks pregnant today, with a baby boy! We're excited. I had to get a cerclage, which is a stitch in your cervix, giving it more strength to save this pregnancy. I had surgery March 15th and so far everything is awesome. It'll be 2 yrs in August for Patrick and I. We're doing really good. Living together, and today is his last day of college. He went to school for car audio, which is really awesome. I'm proud of him. But as for me all I really do is a whole lot of nothing. Doctors orders of course. I get my next ultrasound Tuesday, but here are some pictures of my last one. Ultrasound pictures